Monday, July 04, 2005 @11:40 pm
it's been quite some time since i've updated this little blog of mine.
I'm emotionally tired. somebody tell me why.
I dont really know what to say anymore. It seems that everytime i've a glimmer of hope, it disappears the very next moment. the hope, is not a hope for something we cant do right now. it's just a simple hope to have the right to love. but it's being taken away from me.
thank God for my friends though. they really helped me thru this ordeal. not that it's totally blown over, but they helped me thru a very difficult period.
this particular image keeps playing in my head over and over again. it's so tiring, i hardly know how to respond. i hardly have the energy to think of why. just so much emotion sweeping through me.
for the first time, i'm finding it so difficult to get over this matter. it was never much of a problem for me. i would be sad last time, for a couple of days, then the matter would be nearly non-existent. but now, although i have so many other things to worry about, this matter still bothers me. it's hard to ignore it, or even to push it aside, for that matter.
okay.. aside from that matter.
i saw someone whom i didnt wish to see on saturday. omg. and today another one. i really got a shock. i don't know how to respond at all. ya know, these pple are plain weird? i'm not alone in that statement, i can say. right, my two good friends P n J? hahaha.
well i'm just pretty much freaked out by what's happened within the past three years. a lot of things. poly life has been pretty pleasant other than some disgusting stuffs. =/
oh well. i love my people in band. really do. esp the clique. brighten up my day~ heh.
lovelove*
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